The Unwinding Yarn.

Poetic nonsense.

Fri, 20 Feb 2009 07:07:16 GMT

Just a collection of poems I've written lately.

In chronological order from oldest to newest.

You are, of course, under no obligation to read all of them.
I understand that this post is pretty darn long.
I won't be offended if you don't read them/all of them. :)

Alone By Myself
I told you I was broken
I showed you all these scars
I thought that I could trust you
So I lay there in your arms

When they said you'd said those ugly things
You all heard my smile shatter
I listened to the ones I'd known longer
And the lies I believed got fatter

I now think I was searching
For a reason to run and get out
But when I finally found the truth
I got lost in confusion and doubt

Now once again I'm broken
And I have yet more scars
I know now I can trust you
But someone else is in your arms

My Guardian Angels
We were both young when we each started to fall
Neither in shape to help the other along
Desperately struggling just to move at a crawl
But still you became my safety net
You, my faithful friend,
You kept me from wondering

I didn't know what to think when we first met
How could I have known I would so need you?
Confronting my pain at last became possible
At the moment you let me cry there
You, my honest friend,
You kept me from wondering

We had known each other a mere few months
Though those months may have seemed like years
Being yours made me feel valued and loved
Your friendship helps me remember
You, my open friend,
You kept me from wondering

I never dared dream we would be such good friends
How could those fools throw your trust away?
I pray the rumors prove to have an ounce of truth
While the thought exists, I will hope
Because you, my newest friend,
You are keeping me from wondering

Sweet Drops of Rain
I'm sitting on the counter
Staring across the room.
The cabinet is mocking me
As hurtful words bounce around in my head.
     I am alone and unwanted.
     They'd be happier without me.
The cabinet is tempting me
With bitter liquids and bland candies
To make me close my eyes and
          Forever sleep.
My thoughts are interrupted by the phone.
I choose to pick it up,
And I have my last conversation.
But before disconnection,
I hear three miraculous words:
     "I love you."
          . . .
The cabinet is daring me.
I tear my eyes away
And fly through the front door.
My feel slam on the pavement as I run.
     I refuse to be tempted.
     I refuse to be mocked.
Someone finds value in me.
The sky rips open,
And my tears of hope are mingled with
          Sweet drops of rain.

9/12
The clock reads nine eleven,
And I am reminded of that fateful day
When a country finally bonded together
As we realized the horror we've been spared,
Horrors the rest of the world is used to.
But where others thought to destroy us,
Where others sought to break our dream,
We showed them courage;
We showed them strength;
And we showed them hope
Because like a clock that keeps ticking,
Like a clock that eternally keeps time,
We fought on.
Our will power made us strong;
Our hope made us courageous.
Our hope made us brave enough to face a new day.
Like a ticking clock,
We moved ever forward.

Tick.

Tick.

Tick.

... The clock reads nine twelve.

Whispers of my Heart
I turn at the sound of your voice
My name sounds sweetest on your lips
You slowly move close to me
You move close to me
Gently holding me
My heart skips a beat

Silly and stupid it may be
But still
My heart skips a beat

Your soft black hair
Your deep brown eyes
Your warm, beautiful smile
That makes me melt

In your embrace,
I am at home
Comfortable
Loved
And at peace

Silly and stupid it may be
But still
My heart skips a beat

I am finally happy
... But I feel your warm arms leaving me
Is this rejection?
Is this some cruel joke?

No.
It was only a dream.

It was only the whispers of my heart,
Come to invade my dreams.

It was only a dream
... And that's all it will ever be.

I Wish, I Wish.
I wish, I wish, with all my heart
     That you and I should never part.

I wish, I wish, with all my might
     That you would turn and run to the light.

I wish, I wish, with all my soul
     That you could fill this gaping hole.

I wish, I wish, on all that is fine
     That you could be forever mine.

Writer's Block: Open Arms

Fri, 30 Jan 2009 05:39:07 GMT

Have you ever spontaneously hugged someone you didn't know? Or received an unexpected embrace from a stranger?

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... Yes.
I was having a really crappy day, and Chad Jeter randomly hugged me on the way to Geometry.
It was only a few weeks after that happened that he died, actually. :/

Writer's Block: You Wouldn't Understand

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 14:08:10 GMT

Almost everyone coins or uses expressions that make sense to only a few people. What word or phrase do you use most often that you have to explain the meaning of to others?

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Oh, wow. Sooo many... But I think my favorite EVER is "kick-ass early." :)

Writer's Block: Back to School

Thu, 15 Jan 2009 06:13:53 GMT

What fictional high school—from tv, film, or a book—would you most like to attend? Or would you rather never go near high school again, fictional or otherwise?

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High school can suck it.
... But if I /had/ to choose, John Adams High doesn't seem so bad.
Plus, it had the most BA teacher everrr: FE-HE-HE-HEENEH! :)

Writer's Block: Shops Gone By

Tue, 13 Jan 2009 04:28:46 GMT

Woolworths shut its doors in the U.K. last week, sending many into a frenzy of nostalgia and bargain shopping. What now-closed store or chain do you wish was still open?

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Oh, God. Briley's Coffee. It was a local place, and it closed when my town got a friggen Starbucks. xP
I miss the adorable little ladybugs they put on top of the lids. My mom had one on her volume control in the station wagon; it's gone now, of course... I was really sad when she didn't salvage it when my parents went to take a look at the car after the wreck.

Now onto the regular post...

Jeremy called me earlier. He's actually still been calling every night since we broke up... I feel kinda weird talking to him every night. He's the only person that I've had a conversation with on consecutive nights for any length of time.

At school, he seems like he's fine. He's got a smile on his face. He's not just shutting himself away from everybody... But I know it's just an act. I know I hurt him really badly, and I know he desperately wishes we were still together. I think that it might be driving him to be super clingy like this, and I feel terrible about it... But on the other hand, I don't want to string him along and give him any ideas that I might change my mind anytime in the immediate future. Because I know I'm not going to change my mind, as much as it sucks being single again.. Especially after someone who was always so amazing to me.

I want to stay his friend... But I don't know how to cut him off just the /tiniest/ bit without pissing him off or making him feel worse. :/

...And while we're on the topic of boys, let me tell you about my weekend and the presence of Javed in it.

I've known Javed since middle school, but we never really talked to each other until recently. Christy and him have become really good friends, and we started talking to each other whenever the three of us (and often Travis and/or Kyle as well) hung out together. In the past couple of weeks, we've been talking a lot on MySpace. We've gotten to know each other better; Javed's a really interesting and fun guy to talk to. I enjoy talking to him because he's got such a different perspective on the world... And I think I can safely say we're pretty decent friends by now.

Well. I was talking to Kyle last week in tech theatre, and he said there's a good chance Javed likes me. He hasn't talked to either Travis or Javed about it, but Kyle's been one of his best friends for years. (Travis is, of course, the other one) And I trust his judgement on this: if Kyle thinks Javed probably likes me, then I think it's safe to give about a 95% chance that Javed likes me. And only to further suggest the validity of this point, Javed just about refused to let me pay for anything when we went out to lunch and to see Benjamin Button together yesterday. I had gotten twenty bucks from my parents to pay for my share of the day, even. And I didn't spend any of it.

Actual conversation we had while walking away from the ticket counter:

Me I could've bought my own ticket, y'know.
Javed I know. It's just easier to get both at once.
Me You really didn't have to, though.
Javed I don't have to do anything that I do. I just do what suits me.

I dunno what to do... Though seeing as Javed hasn't confessed his undying love for me or anything, it's quite possible that Kyle and I are just being completely paranoid and reading way too much into things... :P

And on a different, though related, note:
Since when am I so liked by guys? I honestly don't understand it.
I'm not always the nicest person to be around. I'm damn indecisive and often rather wishy-washy. I still don't think I'm all that attractive, though I do feel lots better about my looks these days than I used to. I just don't get why guys are into me.
If someone could explain it to me, I will be forever grateful.

OHHHH, and Bailey - you must go see Benjamin Button at some point. It was excellent; you will love it. :)

Ugh.

Mon, 05 Jan 2009 08:09:10 GMT

I feel like shit.

goddamn, am i stupid.

New Year's '08 ICONS!

Sat, 03 Jan 2009 22:03:32 GMT

Icons with quotes from the quote notebook are my favorite to make. :)

I love you all so much. :)

... Dang.

Sat, 03 Jan 2009 20:22:52 GMT

goldinuniverse.com
Something that Anne Le, Rebecca Vilarreal, and Ryan have all done.
... It's pretty darn accurate.

--

You are feeling exhausted, worn out, drained. You feel that far too much is being asked of you but you still want to overcome these difficulties and establish yourself despite the effect such an effort seems to have on you. You are a proud person, assertive most of the time, but at this particular moment you are acting as if you have become resigned to the situation. What you need is some tender loving care - a gentle pat on the head (or maybe a 'kick-up-the backside') and then you'll be raring to go.

You need an atmosphere of peace and quiet and you would like to share a bond of understanding with the 'right person' - you have the belief that with the right person, your stress and anxiety could be minimised.

You are trying to break away from the mundane existence that you have been experiencing of late. You have many high hopes and ideals but you are concerned whether circumstances will allow you to realise these ambitions. You want to spread your wings - to broaden your fields of activities - but you are concerned that your dreams are just that - 'dreams' which are not realistic. It concerns you that you are not thinking clearly at this time - what you need is to get away from it all, to give you time to think. A short vacation could well restore your confidence.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You are trying to build up your own position and you resist all external influences. You insist that you are your own person and you will not tolerate any outside interference. Decisive and proud, you are true managerial material.

--

Yeah.
I just felt like posting that.

New Year's '08 quotes!

Fri, 02 Jan 2009 03:55:12 GMT

Pictures to follow sometime within the next few days.. To week... >__>

"Would you rather urinate through your nose or smell through your genitalia?"
"... I did not just hear that."

"There's Coke in my shoe!"
"There's Coke in my face!"

"We have food for Bailey. The rest of you can scavenge."

"Clay, are you putting a mop in my shoe?"

"Oh no, wait, Stina's in my trunk..."

"The cast list is whiter than Mormon Jesus!"

"Emily, you're grounded from socks!"

"This is Amy. She's Jewish... It's a secret."

"Ahh! She's attacking me with broccoli!"

"... A blind poodle?"
"Named Pierre."
"...... Ah."

"Fajietas!"

"HEY! Yo' phone ringin'!"

"We'll explain it when you're older."
"Or when you're taller."

"Clay's a raging pedophile!"

"Dere's creepy tings in dere!"

"I brought strudel!"

"You can call me... Strudel Arm."

"I have Chex Mix for one arm, and strudel for the other. They call me... Bailey."

"You hate everything because you're short and you feel very angry about this."

"Are you four?"
"Yes..."

"Wait! I have a wife and children!"

"Y'all wanna watch the ball drop, right?"
"Clay, you're gonna become a man?"

"My nose isn't connected to my brain!"

"It's ambiance..."

"They're Christina toes!"

"I think I'm gonna stick to pictures from behind."
"KINKY."

"She's crazy!"
"Like a fox?"
"No, like a psycho!"

"You wanna go find it my mom's closet?"
"... Wait, what?"

"Syrup and whiskey fixes everything!"

"This thing doesn't ever say no, does it?"
"Neither does your mom."

"Is that Ryan Seacrest? Coz he's fat!"
"More like Ryan Fatcrest, am I right?"

"Haha! Writers have no honor!"

"I was born in thirteen different states!"

"If that's real fur, I'm gonna kick her in the vagina."

"WOAH! He's ugly!"

"Jesse McCartney did the voice of Alvin in Alvin and the Chipmunks."
"WHAT?!... WHAT?!... WHAT?!"

"Rockefeller Center, which really isn't as big as everyone thinks."
"It's about as big as the one at the mall, right?"
"No, smaller."

"There is no 'Emily' in 'team!'"
"But there is an 'Emily' in... 'Teamily!'"

"Not a real testimonial; paid actors."

"No, it's like follow-the-leader for cows."
*Stupid hippie...*

"Well, Miley Cyrus isn't doing anything to hurt Avatar."
"But look at her!"

"Clay, you can't hang out with us until you get a boob job."

"I don't give out my strudel at theaters."

"It's her Death Note!"
"Shhh! People know how to use it here!"

"Bailey loves Wikipedia!"

"No snaps for Wikipedia."

"Hey, if it was beer, we'd be sharing."
"Like hell I'd share!"

"Ahh! That's what Clay's gonna look like!"

"Our ship was well situated, and then Tonks came out of left field!"
"Like the Black Pearl!"

"Imma go spray paint some hoes!"

"She's from, like, Jew Town..."
"Isn't that in New York or Isreal or something?"

"Yes. I gave Emily OCD."

"Sorry, I was just trying to tap you..."

"The guy who played Lupin is-"
"-Too tall?"

"Nobody panic; I'm changing my pants!"

"Miracle manna?"
"Excuse me?"

"We have to get up like kick-ass early."
"Early enough to kick ass?"
"How early would that be?"
"Well, it depends on how much ass needs kickin'."
".... So like seven."

"I can't get mad at her because she was born in Germany."

"And idiots out wandering around aimlessly..."

"Cuts paper, cardboard, vinyl, human flesh..."

"... Naw, that requires thought and smartness."

"Yeah, they make caskets."
"Like for dead people?"

"You have two choices. Would you rather make caskets or bras?"

"All black people are good at sports. That's why they're all in jail."
"... What?"
"To give the white people a chance!"

"... You had a horse in your backyard in Long Island?"

"Why don't cows lay eggs?"
"Because they lay babies!"

"A high school horse teacher?"
"Yeah! I teach horses."

"If laziness were an art from, we'd all be Picasso."

"How do you expect us to go anywhere when it's so cold?"

"I wanna go somewhere where you can touch things..."

"I don't have a sister. She lives in Corpus."

"She can change the weather?! She's like Storm!"

"Shelby is a magical Injun!"

"Katy, look out! Dere's a ghost in da chair!"

"Oh, it's a church thing? If it wasn't, I was gonna say that was kinky..."

"Norman is my valentine!"

"Oh, he'll get over it. I've been disturbing him since I was eight."

"I was a really weird eight year old. I kinda still am."
"You're still a really weird eight year old?"

"Did you just say you're hugly?"
"Yeah! She's ugly, but still huggable!"

"Because it's not scientificable!"
*** Firefox marked all the contractions as incorrect spelling, but it didn't mark 'scientificable'...

"... Does Jesus change color for different people?"

"It's a Mood Jeebus!"

"What's milk? Oh wait, never mind..."

"I am porcelain like a lovely geisha!"

"I'm going to name my children Brandolino and Candelaria!"

Five and a half pages... I'm pretty sure that's a record. :)

Writer's Block: Better to Receive

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 03:00:55 GMT

Sometimes it's the thought that counts, and other times it's the thing itself. What's the best gift you've ever received, thoughtful or otherwise?

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It's a tie, and they're actually both from this year:
$30 to put towards going to see Legally Blonde at Dallas Summer Musicals next July with Christy, Liz, Alisha, Anna, and Ashley. We're all so excited - we can't stop listening to the soundtrack. x]
An absolutely gorgeous cross necklace that Jeremy got me, despite the fact I insisted that he not get me anything at all.

Newsflash: Katy is, in fact, still alive and well!
For those of you that were somehow still unaware, I've been grounded from my laptop for ages.
But my mom let me use it today, and I think I may have it back for good. :)

My Christmas was pretty nice. My family went with a bunch of people from church to feed the homeless in Dallas that morning, and then I spent the rest of the day at Christy's house, and I took bunchessssss of pictures..
Lots of which are available for viewing on my devART, of course. ^^ It was ooooodles of fun.

I finally got to see Jeremy yesterday. :) I spent the afternoon hanging out at his house.
He took me down to the creek by his house... But there was another couple sitting at the best crossing point making out,
and we're like, "Well.... This is awkward." So we just went back to his house after that. x]
Thennnn we played Rock Band! :D I've missed playing drums sooo much. (Matt managed to break our foot pedal. Ugh.)
We eventually got sick of playing Rock Band ("Green Grass and High Tides" will do that to you..)
so Jeremy started playing Madden '08. He played as the 49ers and beat the complete crap out of the Raiders. :)
... Then his mom decided we needed to go out to eat. She almost took us to PF Chang's,
but I was like, "No, that's too expensive! Pei Wei's just as good.. And not expensive..."
So we went to Pei Wei. And it was super yummy... And I kicked Jeremy's butt at Yatzee on his new iTouch. :)
After dinner, we went back to his house and started watching Prince Caspian...
I couldn't stop complaining about Caspian/Susan. >__>
... Okay, we didn't actually watch Prince Caspian. I was watching it, and Jeremy was looking at me while I watched it.
........ And I didn't actually watch the whole thing. I only watched about half of it.
................ Because other stuff happened during the second half. :) lol
Buuuut anyway. It was so much fun. I love hanging out with my baby. :)

I'll update this thing again in a few days... With quotes from the quote notebook of New Year's goings on. :)

<3

Yes, I know.

Tue, 25 Nov 2008 01:34:51 GMT

It's been a while.
But my mom's laptop is here, the other three human members of my family are out, and frankly, I NEED to update this thing.

I got a letter from an art college in Detroit today - College for Creative Studies, or CCS.
The opening statement caught my attention.

College is more than hard work. It's lifelong friendships, little sleep, Ramen Noodles, roommates, cafeteria food, and the best four years of your life.

1/3 of the second sentence in a letter from a college is about food?
There must be a catch - that's simply far too good to be true. xD

... I updated my dA some the other night. I felt quite accomplished, haha

I also got my teeth cleaned today. They're all white and sparkly and yay. :D

Last Saturday marked one month for Jeremy and me... I juss so happeeee. :]
He invited me over on Friday for a second Thanksgiving. (His cousin can't make it Thursday)
... I kinda wanna go. And that makes me a just liiiittle bit nervous coz I have no great love for ONE Thanksgiving a year.
Don't get me wrong - it's a fun holiday, and I do like having an excuse to pig out to my heart's content.
It's just such a physically taxing holiday...

Buuuuuuut I don't even know if I would be allowed to go.
My mom says I'm grounded, but I don't think my dad backs her up on it. I'm very confused. :P

I think I'm gonna go update my dA some more and then attack my Tumblr and Twitter.
I love my Interwebs. *huggles*

... I think the creative emoticon is my favorite.
I like the way it spazzes out. :D

Boreddddd

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 00:59:53 GMT

Onto the Blogthings! xD

Your result for The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test...
9 - the Peacemakeryour Enneagram type is NINE (aka "The Mediator")

"I am at peace"

Peacemakers are receptive, good-natured, and supportive. They seek union
with others and the world around them.

How to Get Along with Me

If you want me to do something, how you ask is important. I especially
don't like expectations or pressure.

I like to listen and to be of service, but don't take advantage of this.

Listen until I finish speaking, even though I meander a bit.

Give me time to finish things and make decisions. It's OK to nudge
me gently and nonjudgmentally.

Ask me questions to help me get clear.

Tell me when you like how I look. I'm not averse to flattery.

Hug me, show physical affection. It opens me up to my feelings.

I like a good discussion but not a confrontation.

Let me know you like what I've done or said.

Laugh with me and share in my enjoyment of life.

What I Like About Being a NINE

being nonjudgmental and accepting

caring for and being concerned about others

being able to relax and have a good time

knowing that most people enjoy my company; I'm easy to be around

my ability to see many different sides of an issue and to be a good
mediator and facilitator

my heightened awareness of sensations, aesthetics, and the here and
now

being able to go with the flow and feel one with the universe

What's Hard About Being a NINE

being judged and misunderstood for being placid and/or indecisive

being critical of myself for lacking initiative and discipline

being too sensitive to criticism; taking every raised eyebrow and twitch of the mouth personally

being confused about what I really want

caring too much about what others will think of me

not being listened to or taken seriously

NINEs as Children Often

feel ignored and that their wants, opinions, and feelings are unimportant

tune out a lot, especially when others argue

are "good" children: deny anger or keep it to themselves

NINEsas Parents

are supportive, kind, and warm

are sometimes overly permissive or nondirective

You See the World Through Green Colored Glasses

You live your life with generosity. You feel like your life is abundant, and you are very giving toward those around you.

You judge all your interactions through the lens of harmony. You figure you have something to learn from everyone, and you listen well.

You face challenges with a persistent attitude. You can see the prize at the end of the road, and you have the strength to get there.

You see love as the utmost expression of self-esteem. You have to love yourself before you can truly love someone else.

At your worst, you are greedy and selfish. You love money more than you'd like to admit.

You are happiest when you are in nature. You appreciate the feeling of balance that being outdoors brings you.

What Color Glasses Do You See the World Through?

Your Scholastic Strength Is Innovating

You are the master of new ideas, techniques, and ways of looking at things.

You are talented at structuring thoughts, decision making, clarifying, and making deadlines.

You should major in:

Marketing

Psychology

Desgin

Cognitive Science

Economics

Photography

What Should You Major In?

Load of BS... But I do plan on majoring in photojournalism. :]

You Are the Tango

You are an emotionally expressive person. You can't ever really hide how you feel.

Deep and reflective, you need a style of dance to mirror your intensity.

You have a taste of the exotic. You crave sounds, smells, and tastes from foreign countries.

You are sometimes misunderstood and unappreciated. But you don't really care to explain yourself!

What Dance Are You?

What Your Taste in Music Says About You

Your musical tastes are upbeat and conventional.

You are an easy going, optimistic person.

Family and friends are very important to you.

You enjoy caring for and helping other people.

You thrive in a tranquil environment, and you do your best to keep things peaceful.

You enjoy your life. You have your priorities straight.

What Does Your Taste in Music Say About You?

Your Average American Name Is...

Brenda Lynn Roberts

What's Your Average American Name?

You Are 70% Yankee, 30% Dixie

You're so Yankee, it's possible you've never even been to the South!

Are You a Yankee or Dixie?

FAIL. xD

You Are Midtown

You love so many things, you don't fit into any one label.

Your city girl persona goes to a fancy restaurant one night and a dive bar the next.

Are You An Uptown Girl or Downtown Girl?

You Belong in London

A little old fashioned, and a little modern.

A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock.

A unique soul like you needs a city that offers everything.

No wonder you and London will get along so well.

What City Do You Belong In?

You Belong in Paris

You enjoy all that life has to offer, and you can appreciate the fine tastes and sites of Paris.

You're the perfect person to wander the streets of Paris aimlessly, enjoying architecture and a crepe.

What European City Do You Belong In?

You Are Much Closer to Your Friends

Your friends are so great, it's hard not to be the closest to them.

As for your family, your relationship with them is probably a bit strained.

It's okay though. While you can't pick your family, you can pick your friends.

And you've picked some amazing friends who count as family to you.

Are You Closer to Your Friends or Your Family?

"And you've picked some amazing friends who count as family to you."
THEY HAVE NO IDEA. :D hahaha

You Are a Realist

You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass.

You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is...

But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on.

You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope.

Are You An Optimist or Pessimist?

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen to your friends.

And you're the first to lend a shoulder to cry on.

You're there through thick and thin. You won't stop being friends with someone when times are tough.

In fact, you're such a good friend that many people consider you their "best friend"!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

*shrug*
I dunno if any of this one's true...

Your Personality at 35,000 Says...

Deep down, you vastly prefer being with others to being alone. You love to engage people in conversation.

You don't spend much time thinking about your place in the world. You are who you are - and people can just deal with that!

Your gift is having a way with words. You know how to express yourself well.

You are inspired by what is possible. Real life is often too ordinary for you.

You are happy as long as you are given some personal space. It's important for you to have your own private life.

The Personality Test at 35,000 Feet

The Road Trip of Your Life

You see life as a journey to be shared with others. Kinship and sharing are very important to you.

Your life is quite hectic. You try to slow down when you can, but it's not easy!

You're willing to take a few risks in life. You may not take the road no one travels, but you're happy to take the road less traveled.

You are able to find a fairly healthy balance between work and play. You work when you need to, but you never let yourself burn out.

In another life, you could have been a great artist. You trust your creative instincts enough to let them lead you.

The Road Trip Test

You Are 39% Open

You are open at times, but generally you don't let many people into your inner world.

It's possible that you have a friend or two that knows you well.

But to most people, you are a total mystery.

How Open Are You?

Your Eyes Should Be Brown

Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom

People find you to be: Loyal, honest, and comforting

Your best trait: You are comfortable with who you are, and you don't pretend to be someone you're not

What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

*shrug*
Dunno about this one, either...

8 community!

Tue, 09 Sep 2008 03:28:19 GMT

Yes, you read that right.
Vertical Infinity community. :D

I figured I would make it private so no random weirdos can join and spoil our fun, lol
I've already sent invites to Bee, Stina, Emu, and Aru (her rhyme_me_this account).

I hope I done good on the logo. :3
It doesn't do Emily's sketch for the shirts any justice whatsoever.

Bahhhaha

Wed, 03 Sep 2008 01:02:55 GMT

So at the high school I *would've* gone to had I stayed in California, the senior class take a trip to WaterWorld every year.
My friends Anny and Hannah both confirmed going on the Facebook event page, so I thought I'd take a peek at the details.

"The forecast for next Tuesday in Concord is a burning 89 & sunny, what perfect weather!"

Us Californians and our silly 'burning' 89 degree weather, haha

Yeah... So I just found it hysterical that I used to think that was really hot
when I would absolutely kill for 89 degree weather during band now. xD

In other news, Casey Clements is in my English class! :D
We had a very... *interesting* conversation about religion today. :]

.... Is it sad that I've already said all the interesting things that happened today? :P

Guess that means it's time for some shameless self-promotion:
teapot_icons - it's the shiz. For cereal. For Cocoa Puffs, even.
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Just icons!

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 00:49:56 GMT

*Centered/weird spacing to make it even on the actual post part*

For my fellow, alive band geeks. :D hah.
Notice the spiffy, glittery letters and how
it's done in Plano East colors. *nod* x]

Also for use by East kids. (Or Bee, if she feels so inclined)

That's Leah Barnett playing, for anyone who cares to know.

... And wtf is with accomplished? o__0

Eh.

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 01:45:24 GMT

First day was alright.

1. Music Theory AP - Mr. Pedigo
This class is amusing simply because more than half the class is band kids. xD Mr. Pedigo is simply amazingggg. I think he's gonna be my favorite. And I'm suuuuuper excited for the two trips we get to take. They're gonna be fun... Music Theory is gonna be my favorite class ever. :D

2. Tech Theater I - Mr. Elms
Mr. Elms is kinda.... off.
I can't place my finger on it, but something's weird about that guy. Buuuuut I'm really excited for the class itself. I can't wait to work on the Footloose set in Novemberrr!

3. US History - Coach Allen
.... Eh. Coach seems nice enough, but the way he phrases things is really annoying. I'm totally gonna own this class, though. :D

4. Algebra II - Mrs. Kahn
Mrs. Kahn has the weirdest accent ever. Seriously. She obviously was raised in India, but she went to school in New York, so she has this weird India mixed with NYC thing going on. And she seems like the kind of teacher that knows what she's doing but doesn't know how to explain it to anyone else. Wooooonderful.

5. Chemistry I - Mrs. Bordere
Ugh. Sooooo boring. Noooot a good speaker. And she went on and on and on about how you can apply chemistry to all sorts of careers and what have you, and it's like "Lady, shut up! I don't think you've noticed, but nobody's listening to you!" >__<

6. Band - Mrs. Harvey
Pretty much what I expected... But Albert's not happy with Morgan, Allison, and me because we took the front row. :D Bahhhaha

7. English 3 Honors - Mrs. Stewart
Arsen is in this class. FAIL. D: But other than that, it's pretty good... Sitting next to Alex is going to be interesting. xD Not sure what to make of Mrs. Stewart yet. She's kinda weird, too, though a different kind of weird than Mr. Elms...

Not pleased

Mon, 25 Aug 2008 01:46:56 GMT

that school starts tomorrow. D:

At least there's Flower Mound and Hot Nastia Liukin's parade to look forward to. xD

In other news, Christy and I were extremely giggly today. 'Twas quite fun.
She came with my family to Cracker Barrel after Bartimaeus today.
I swear, Christy, my dad, and I are all the same person, but in 3 different bodies. :D

The ride home was... Interesting.
Christy had me listen to a bunch of songs that she stole off Brittney Hamby's iPod.
...... There's a lottttt of super awkward stuff on Christy's iPod now. xD

So,

Fri, 22 Aug 2008 04:10:34 GMT

there's this person that has an icon journal, and it's pretty sweet.
teapot_icons - them's good stuff :D

*shameless self-promotion*

Writer's Block: Remembering Summer

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 16:30:06 GMT

Care to reminisce about some favorite (or not so favorite) summer memories?

Submitted By the_nerd_reaper

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I've got a few... *Mostly reverse chronological order*

1. Stina's birthday at Bee's old house! That was the first time I'd hung out with 'the family' outside of school.
...... Choosing to skip of the cheesy part and go right to Stina and Bee renewing their vows in the pool. xD

2. Getting to see Jacob and Anny the last two times I went to California! <3 Jacob is my very best friend out of all my friends in California. We've been through a lot of stuff together, and I know he's always gonna be there for me. (Partially because I'm convinced some part of him still has a crush on me, bahhhaha) And Anny is just so much fun to be around. She's crazy and nice and speaks her mind no matter the consequences. It was amazing to get to hang out with both of them and catch up.

3. Surprisingly, the road trip we took when we moved out here. Yeah, it sucked being stuck next to a stir-crazy Matthew, especially going through Kansas and the Painted Desert, where there is NOTHING to distract you outside the car (20 minutes into going through Painted Desert, everything starts looking exactly the same to you; it sucksss)... But I got to see so many amazing things on that road trip. It was the first time (And only time..) I'd been to Vegas and staying in New York, New York made me want to see what NYC is REALLY like. We got to go to a Native American reservation called Sky City. It was so cool walking through the town because all the buildings were pueblos; it was kind of unreal. And I ended up talking to a girl who was only a few years older than me about what life is like on the reservation. I don't remember her name, but she was so excited to talk about her life there. She said she had friends outside of the reservation, and I remember asking if she ever got jealous of everything they had that she didn't. She told me, "Yeah, I get jealous sometimes. We don't really have a chance to play video games, watch TV, or even go to the movies very often out here. We're kind of isolated. But then I remind myself that I'm part of something that hardly anybody else is. They've got all their stuff, and all their friends have the same stuff, but what I have is truly unique." ...... She was pretty incredible. :] .... Also on the trip, I got to go to the Hoover Dam for the first time. Talk about massive. It was also the first time I went to Albuquerque, and I completely fell in love with it.

4. Cruise around the border of Alaska with Matt and my grandparents... I honestly have no words for how beautiful Alaska is. I saw glaciers for the first time. I saw wild bald eagles, humpback whales, and grizzly bears for the first time. I was taken through the woods by a dog sled team whose owner participates in the Iditarod every year. I drank the purest water imaginable; there was a water fountain on a hike we took that used runoff from the ice on the mountains. I got to go kayaking (for the first time) in the ocean. It was utterly mind-blowing.

... I'll stop boring you all now. xD

SCHEDULEEEE!... And other things.

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 04:19:34 GMT

Because Ryan specifically asked. :D
1. Music Theory 2(?) AP - Pedigo
2. Tech. Theater 1 - Elms - suuuuper excited :D
3. US History - Allen
4. Algebra 2 - no teacher yet
5. Chem. 1 - no teacher yet
6. Band - Says Harvey, but I thought it was Brennan? Oh well.
7. Eng. 3 H - Stewart

Yeah, not sure why it says Music Theory 2, but we'll get that worked out.

Andddd originally, they had me in 7th period band, which is the percussion class.
So I went to the table to work it out. They pulled out the list of band kids and what
period we're all supposed to be in. I saw my name, and it said 6th period by it,
and I'd just told this lady that I was supposed to be in that class.

Then she uttered the stupidest statement I think I've ever heard:
"Well, do you play percussion?"
Uh, no? I wouldn't be complaining about being in the percussion class if I played percussion,
not to mention the fact that it freaking says on your paper right there that I'm supposed to be in 6th period.

And we wonder why our generation is growing up to all be completely retarded.

ANYWAY, lemme know if we have classes together~! :]

And now for something completely different!

I hung out with Christy today! We went to three different creeks and I took a crap load of pictures on her camera. <3

Thennnn while we were at the third creek, Christy started talking to Javed,
and Javed wanted to know if we wanted to go see a movie called Henry Poole is Here.
I realllly wanted to see it, but we ended up being 15 minutes late, even though Javed
drove like a madman the entire way to Firewheel. >__> So we ended up sitting on
a bench by the fountain area for like two hours. xD It was pretty awesome.
Javed's an...... Interesting guy to talk to, haha :]

Anyway. I'll stop boring you all now. >__>

copies everybody else

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 04:33:34 GMT

I know I'm a little slow on the uptake here,
but I haven't been on the net much lately.

I'm too tired to do anything after band...

1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
Meh. Doesn't matter. Actually, it's kind of surprising that anyone's calling me...

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
Yup! I like running and then jumping on the bar and riding it over to the cart return in the parking lot. :D

3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
Listener.

4 Do you take compliments well?
Eh. Depends on who's giving it, but usually not that well.

5. Do you play Sudoku?
Heck no. I fail at Sudoku. :P

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
Longer than some, but only by a few days.

7. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
Not that I recall, but I sure as heck went camping alllll the time. :D

8. What was your favorite game as a kid?
Uh. Probably Never-Ending War... Which I've actually finished once, haha
I was playing Matthew and my cousin Taylor... We had a lot of time on our hands. xD

9. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you?
Nopeee.

10. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
......
I choose not to answer this one.
Too many awkward questions.

11. Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
.... Meh. Doesn't really matter to me.

12. Use three words to describe yourself.
Weird, shy, artsy? I dunno...

13. Do any songs make you cry?
"Alyssa Lies" by Jason Michael Carroll
"Yesterdays" by Switchfoot

... Stupid life. :|

14. Are you continuing your education?
Yeah. I want to major in photojournalism (not sure of my minor yet),
but I've no idea where I wanna go to college at the moment...
But my friend Becca is currently trying to convince me to go to SFA with her.

15. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
Paintball count? xD

16. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grabbed?
I honestly don't know.

17. How often do you read books?
Lotsss! I'm nearly always in the middle of reading something. :D

18. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
Future.

19. What is your favorite children’s book?
Anything Seuss! :D
But especially One Fish Two Fish Red Fish Blue Fish,
simply coz it's got the best title like EVAR. :D hahaha

20.What color are your eyes?
Hazel.

21. How tall are you?
Around 5'3".

22. Where is your dream house located?
Having a row house in San Francisco would be freaking AWESOME,
but I'll probably end up moving to Uganda eventually coz it'll be easier.

23. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
The only time I can remember was when I was like 7 with my cousin Taylor.
I still have my half of the pictures. We were pretty rad kids. :D

24. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
Uh... Birthday of a lady from church a few months ago.

25. Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
The Stacy's Furniture in Allen.

26. Do you like mustard?
HECK YES. <3

27. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
Sleep is my bff. <3

28. Do you look like your mom or dad?
Mom's side of the family.

29. How long does it take you in the shower?
About 20 minutes on average (I wash/condition my hair twice), but I can do it in about 5 or 10.

30. Can you do the splits?
I used to be able to, but alas, that skill is with me no more.

31. What movie do you want to see right now?
TROPIC THUNDER! It looks absolutely hysterical.
Andddd Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2... I really should read the books. :P

32. What did you do for New Year’s?
Went to Emu's and made a New Year's tree and played hide-and-go seek and had crappy chocolate fondue and watched the Producers!

33. Do you think The Grudge was scary?
Haven't seen it and have no intention to ever see it.

34. Do you own a camera phone?
No. :P

35. Was your mom a cheerleader?
No way, she was drum major - much cooler. :]

36. What’s the last letter of your middle name?
H.

37. How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
It's never the same two nights in a row.

38. Do you like Care Bears?
HECK TO THE NAW. D:

39. What do you buy at the movies?
I usually don't get stuff at the theater;
my mom and I get stuff at CVS beforehand and sneak it in in our giant purses. xD

40. Do you know how to play poker?
As far as basics are concerned, yeah,
but I fail at ACTUALLY playing it.

41. Do you wear your seat belt?
YUSSS. Especially after the wreck.

42. What do you wear to sleep?
Usually sleep pants and an old tee shirt,
but when I'm like dead tired, I fall asleep in whatever I'm wearing.

43. Anything big ever happen in your hometown?
.... The new shopping center is kinda an enormous thing? haha
I love how the biggest thing in Murphy is currently a Lowe's and soon-to-be Sprout's and 24 Hour Fitness. xD

44. How many meals do you eat a day?
Recently 3, but I've only been eating breakfast lately coz of marching practice.
But I usually only ever eat lunch and dinner. And an afternoon snack when I get home after school some days.

45. Is your tongue pierced?
Nope, and it never will be.

46. Do you always read MySpace bulletins?
Only ones posted by people. (I very rarely read ones posted by bands)

I is not a whore, Christina. D:<

47. Do you like funny or serious people better?
I like people who can be funny/fun to be around but who know when it's time to get serious.

48. Ever been to L.A.?
I'm guessing sitting in a plane seat while waiting during a stopover at a terminal at LAX doesn't count? xD

49. Did you eat a cookie today?
No, I did not.

50. Do you use cuss words in other languages?
No, there aren't many good ones in Latin. <-- This is why I love Stina. :]

And no - I don't know any, haha

51. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads?
I've never paid for a downloaded song, but I got all of them from the band's MySpace page
or some other kind of 'official' site where they've purposely posted a song for free download.

52. Do you hate chocolate?
Of course not!

53. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
They don't really fight. At least, not where Matt and I can see/hear them.

54. Are you a gullible person?
Depends how tired I am...

55. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
Nope.

56. If you could have any job (assuming you have the skills) what would it be?
Photojournalist! :D

57. Are you easy to get along with?
I've been told as much, but I'm not sure I believe it.

58. What is your favorite time of day?
Night! :D

Now I'm off to bed. Night. <3

YAAAAAAAAAAAY!

Mon, 04 Aug 2008 22:54:13 GMT

My Chasing Quaffles CD came today! :D
I'm so very happy. *does the happy dance*

It made my miserable afternoon of playing the fight song, Emblem, and movement 1 of the show so much better, haha

Edit 1 In other news, wtf is with this:

Haiku² for katyofcourse_xx
pretty sure it was meant to calm me down some and made me lol pretty
@

Created by Grahame

I found the generator on somebody's userinfo, in which the following haiku was visible:

hover over the
seat in fear of getting ass
aids or something

I lol'd. :]

Edit 2
well for it but still
a little crazy with it
but it's so fun

if aliens ever
do come to your neck of the
woods they'll probably
(They'll probably WHAT?!)

... I've decided I like the haiku generator. xD

ANDDDDDDDD I'm borrowing Breaking Dawn from that lady at church tomorrow!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I'm super excited to read itttt. :D

... This turned out to be yet another useless post. xD

Woot! It's a comic.

Sat, 02 Aug 2008 00:51:15 GMT

This is the most amazing comic I've seen in months. :D

In other news, my dad bought me a portable iPod stereo off Woot! earlier in the week,
and it came in the mail todayyyy! It's stinkin awesome. The case is a flower print in
varying shades of orange, pink, and brown... I think I may take a purple Sharpie to the
areas that are pink. But other than that, I really love it. The speakers are actually pretty
decent, and they can be turned up crazy loud before the music gets too distorted.

I would just like to say that I hate sucking at Photoshop.
Because these banners could be so much cooler. :P

Today's emoticon: What other people look like when you're on speed. xD

Writer's Block: On Your Tombstone

Thu, 31 Jul 2008 02:45:59 GMT

What do you want written on your gravestone and why?

Submitted By sharky123

View 502 Answers

"If you're reading this, you just lost The Game."

Because, seriously, how awesome would that be?

Bahhaha. Love the surprised emoticon, as well! xD

AHHHHHHHHH!

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 16:01:35 GMT

So there's this awesome Wrock band I've found recently called Chasing Quaffles.
One of the members also have a VampRock band called Bella Rocks!, which is pretty good, too.

Anyway.

They posted a bulletin on MySpace this morning saying they found 5 leftover CD's from a show back in May, and they were gonna give them to the first 5 people who responded for free.

GUESS WHO'S GETTING A FREE CD. :D
It's the Chasing Quaffles CD, and it has a few Bella Rocks! songs tacked on at the end.

I'm excitedddddddd. *does the happy dance*

EDIT: I really like the emoticon for the 'enthralled' mood.
I'm gonna use it as often as possible. It's so cute! :3 haha

The Unwinding Yarn.

Poetic nonsense.

Writer's Block: Open Arms

Writer's Block: You Wouldn't Understand

Writer's Block: Back to School

Writer's Block: Shops Gone By

Ugh.

New Year's '08 ICONS!

... Dang.

New Year's '08 quotes!

Writer's Block: Better to Receive

Yes, I know.

Boreddddd

"I am at peace"

8 community!

Bahhhaha

Just icons!

Eh.

Not pleased

So,

Writer's Block: Remembering Summer

SCHEDULEEEE!... And other things.

*copies everybody else*

YAAAAAAAAAAAY!

Woot! It's a comic.

Writer's Block: On Your Tombstone

AHHHHHHHHH!

copies everybody else