I was having a really crappy day, and Chad Jeter randomly hugged me on the way to Geometry.
It was only a few weeks after that happened that he died, actually. :/
... But if I /had/ to choose, John Adams High doesn't seem so bad.
Plus, it had the most BA teacher everrr: FE-HE-HE-HEENEH! :)
I miss the adorable little ladybugs they put on top of the lids. My mom had one on her volume control in the station wagon; it's gone now, of course... I was really sad when she didn't salvage it when my parents went to take a look at the car after the wreck.
Now onto the regular post...
Jeremy called me earlier. He's actually still been calling every night since we broke up... I feel kinda weird talking to him every night. He's the only person that I've had a conversation with on consecutive nights for any length of time.
At school, he seems like he's fine. He's got a smile on his face. He's not just shutting himself away from everybody... But I know it's just an act. I know I hurt him really badly, and I know he desperately wishes we were still together. I think that it might be driving him to be super clingy like this, and I feel terrible about it... But on the other hand, I don't want to string him along and give him any ideas that I might change my mind anytime in the immediate future. Because I know I'm not going to change my mind, as much as it sucks being single again.. Especially after someone who was always so amazing to me.
I want to stay his friend... But I don't know how to cut him off just the /tiniest/ bit without pissing him off or making him feel worse. :/
...And while we're on the topic of boys, let me tell you about my weekend and the presence of Javed in it.
I've known Javed since middle school, but we never really talked to each other until recently. Christy and him have become really good friends, and we started talking to each other whenever the three of us (and often Travis and/or Kyle as well) hung out together. In the past couple of weeks, we've been talking a lot on MySpace. We've gotten to know each other better; Javed's a really interesting and fun guy to talk to. I enjoy talking to him because he's got such a different perspective on the world... And I think I can safely say we're pretty decent friends by now.
Well. I was talking to Kyle last week in tech theatre, and he said there's a good chance Javed likes me. He hasn't talked to either Travis or Javed about it, but Kyle's been one of his best friends for years. (Travis is, of course, the other one) And I trust his judgement on this: if Kyle thinks Javed probably likes me, then I think it's safe to give about a 95% chance that Javed likes me. And only to further suggest the validity of this point, Javed just about refused to let me pay for anything when we went out to lunch and to see Benjamin Button together yesterday. I had gotten twenty bucks from my parents to pay for my share of the day, even. And I didn't spend any of it.
Actual conversation we had while walking away from the ticket counter:
Me I could've bought my own ticket, y'know.
Javed I know. It's just easier to get both at once.
Me You really didn't have to, though.
Javed I don't have to do anything that I do. I just do what suits me.
I dunno what to do... Though seeing as Javed hasn't confessed his undying love for me or anything, it's quite possible that Kyle and I are just being completely paranoid and reading way too much into things... :P
And on a different, though related, note:
Since when am I so liked by guys? I honestly don't understand it.
I'm not always the nicest person to be around. I'm damn indecisive and often rather wishy-washy. I still don't think I'm all that attractive, though I do feel lots better about my looks these days than I used to. I just don't get why guys are into me.
If someone could explain it to me, I will be forever grateful.
OHHHH, and Bailey - you must go see Benjamin Button at some point. It was excellent; you will love it. :)
goddamn, am i stupid.
Something that Anne Le, Rebecca Vilarreal, and Ryan have all done.
... It's pretty darn accurate.
You are feeling exhausted, worn out, drained. You feel that far too much is being asked of you but you still want to overcome these difficulties and establish yourself despite the effect such an effort seems to have on you. You are a proud person, assertive most of the time, but at this particular moment you are acting as if you have become resigned to the situation. What you need is some tender loving care - a gentle pat on the head (or maybe a 'kick-up-the backside') and then you'll be raring to go.
You need an atmosphere of peace and quiet and you would like to share a bond of understanding with the 'right person' - you have the belief that with the right person, your stress and anxiety could be minimised.
You are trying to break away from the mundane existence that you have been experiencing of late. You have many high hopes and ideals but you are concerned whether circumstances will allow you to realise these ambitions. You want to spread your wings - to broaden your fields of activities - but you are concerned that your dreams are just that - 'dreams' which are not realistic. It concerns you that you are not thinking clearly at this time - what you need is to get away from it all, to give you time to think. A short vacation could well restore your confidence.
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.
You are trying to build up your own position and you resist all external influences. You insist that you are your own person and you will not tolerate any outside interference. Decisive and proud, you are true managerial material.--
I just felt like posting that.
"Would you rather urinate through your nose or smell through your genitalia?"
"... I did not just hear that."
"There's Coke in my shoe!"
"There's Coke in my face!"
"We have food for Bailey. The rest of you can scavenge."
"Clay, are you putting a mop in my shoe?"
"Oh no, wait, Stina's in my trunk..."
"The cast list is whiter than Mormon Jesus!"
"Emily, you're grounded from socks!"
"This is Amy. She's Jewish... It's a secret."
"Ahh! She's attacking me with broccoli!"
"... A blind poodle?"
"HEY! Yo' phone ringin'!"
"We'll explain it when you're older."
"Or when you're taller."
"Clay's a raging pedophile!"
"I brought strudel!"
"You can call me... Strudel Arm."
"I have Chex Mix for one arm, and strudel for the other. They call me... Bailey."
"You hate everything because you're short and you feel very angry about this."
"Are you four?"
"Wait! I have a wife and children!"
"Y'all wanna watch the ball drop, right?"
"Clay, you're gonna become a man?"
"My nose isn't connected to my brain!"
"They're Christina toes!"
"I think I'm gonna stick to pictures from behind."
"Like a fox?"
"No, like a psycho!"
"You wanna go find it my mom's closet?"
"... Wait, what?"
"This thing doesn't ever say no, does it?"
"Neither does your mom."
"Is that Ryan Seacrest? Coz he's fat!"
"More like Ryan Fatcrest, am I right?"
"Haha! Writers have no honor!"
"I was born in thirteen different states!"
"If that's real fur, I'm gonna kick her in the vagina."
"WOAH! He's ugly!"
"Jesse McCartney did the voice of Alvin in Alvin and the Chipmunks."
"WHAT?!... WHAT?!... WHAT?!"
"Rockefeller Center, which really isn't as big as everyone thinks."
"It's about as big as the one at the mall, right?"
"There is no 'Emily' in 'team!'"
"But there is an 'Emily' in... 'Teamily!'"
"Not a real testimonial; paid actors."
"No, it's like follow-the-leader for cows."
"Well, Miley Cyrus isn't doing anything to hurt Avatar."
"But look at her!"
"Clay, you can't hang out with us until you get a boob job."
"I don't give out my strudel at theaters."
"It's her Death Note!"
"Shhh! People know how to use it here!"
"Bailey loves Wikipedia!"
"No snaps for Wikipedia."
"Hey, if it was beer, we'd be sharing."
"Like hell I'd share!"
"Ahh! That's what Clay's gonna look like!"
"Our ship was well situated, and then Tonks came out of left field!"
"Like the Black Pearl!"
"Imma go spray paint some hoes!"
"She's from, like, Jew Town..."
"Isn't that in New York or Isreal or something?"
"Yes. I gave Emily OCD."
"Sorry, I was just trying to tap you..."
"The guy who played Lupin is-"
"Nobody panic; I'm changing my pants!"
"We have to get up like kick-ass early."
"Early enough to kick ass?"
"How early would that be?"
"Well, it depends on how much ass needs kickin'."
".... So like seven."
"I can't get mad at her because she was born in Germany."
"And idiots out wandering around aimlessly..."
"Cuts paper, cardboard, vinyl, human flesh..."
"... Naw, that requires thought and smartness."
"Yeah, they make caskets."
"Like for dead people?"
"You have two choices. Would you rather make caskets or bras?"
"All black people are good at sports. That's why they're all in jail."
"To give the white people a chance!"
"... You had a horse in your backyard in Long Island?"
"Why don't cows lay eggs?"
"Because they lay babies!"
"A high school horse teacher?"
"Yeah! I teach horses."
"If laziness were an art from, we'd all be Picasso."
"I wanna go somewhere where you can touch things..."
"I don't have a sister. She lives in Corpus."
"She can change the weather?! She's like Storm!"
"Shelby is a magical Injun!"
"Katy, look out! Dere's a ghost in da chair!"
"Oh, it's a church thing? If it wasn't, I was gonna say that was kinky..."
"Norman is my valentine!"
"Oh, he'll get over it. I've been disturbing him since I was eight."
"I was a really weird eight year old. I kinda still am."
"You're still a really weird eight year old?"
"Did you just say you're hugly?"
"Yeah! She's ugly, but still huggable!"
"Because it's not scientificable!"
*** Firefox marked all the contractions as incorrect spelling, but it didn't mark 'scientificable'...
"... Does Jesus change color for different people?"
"It's a Mood Jeebus!"
"What's milk? Oh wait, never mind..."
"I am porcelain like a lovely geisha!"
"I'm going to name my children Brandolino and Candelaria!"
Five and a half pages... I'm pretty sure that's a record. :)
$30 to put towards going to see Legally Blonde at Dallas Summer Musicals next July with Christy, Liz, Alisha, Anna, and Ashley. We're all so excited - we can't stop listening to the soundtrack. x]
An absolutely gorgeous cross necklace that Jeremy got me, despite the fact I insisted that he not get me anything at all.
Newsflash: Katy is, in fact, still alive and well!
For those of you that were somehow still unaware, I've been grounded from my laptop for ages.
But my mom let me use it today, and I think I may have it back for good. :)
My Christmas was pretty nice. My family went with a bunch of people from church to feed the homeless in Dallas that morning, and then I spent the rest of the day at Christy's house, and I took bunchessssss of pictures..
Lots of which are available for viewing on my devART, of course. ^^ It was ooooodles of fun.
I finally got to see Jeremy yesterday. :) I spent the afternoon hanging out at his house.
He took me down to the creek by his house... But there was another couple sitting at the best crossing point making out,
and we're like, "Well.... This is awkward." So we just went back to his house after that. x]
Thennnn we played Rock Band! :D I've missed playing drums sooo much. (Matt managed to break our foot pedal. Ugh.)
We eventually got sick of playing Rock Band ("Green Grass and High Tides" will do that to you..)
so Jeremy started playing Madden '08. He played as the 49ers and beat the complete crap out of the Raiders. :)
... Then his mom decided we needed to go out to eat. She almost took us to PF Chang's,
but I was like, "No, that's too expensive! Pei Wei's just as good.. And not expensive..."
So we went to Pei Wei. And it was super yummy... And I kicked Jeremy's butt at Yatzee on his new iTouch. :)
After dinner, we went back to his house and started watching Prince Caspian...
I couldn't stop complaining about Caspian/Susan. >__>
... Okay, we didn't actually watch Prince Caspian. I was watching it, and Jeremy was looking at me while I watched it.
........ And I didn't actually watch the whole thing. I only watched about half of it.
................ Because other stuff happened during the second half. :) lol
Buuuut anyway. It was so much fun. I love hanging out with my baby. :)
I'll update this thing again in a few days... With quotes from the quote notebook of New Year's goings on. :)